Expectations

Sometimes when I sing, especially in front of people I don’t know well, I have to hold back, because in my perspective, it may trigger negative things for people, such as jealousy, competitiveness, and crazy expectations of. me.

It’s easier to be “average”

To not stand out.

To do so would be to deny myself.

While I don’t try to stand out, I do what I am comfortable doing.

Unless everyone else sucks, then I need to make myself suck, sing really quietly, or not sing at all.

I think this is applicable for lots of people, where they stand out in certain areas so much they want to just hide,

the part of where it stands out, just so people wouldn’t expect so much out of them.

 

This I wonder:

Is it a good thing for people to have crazy expectations? I can see how it gives motivation for me to be better than my “normal”.

I sing better when I have an audience: better sustain, with extra breath, with facial expressions, articulated consonants and vowels more, etc…

Having an audience makes me nervous, or excited, I cannot tell when I’m in the moment, whatever it is, it’s energy I can use to perform.

The bad part about it is it can be pressuring and cumbersome to deal with those expectations, especially unrealistic ones.

I prefer not to deal with it.

On another note, sometimes I wish people would at least sing in the right key the whole way through…

I don’t tolerate bad singing well, I probably won’t say anything, but I’ll cringe and leave/run away.

Please don’t make me sit through it.

 

This reminded me of something more applicable, about the definition of tolerance.

It’s funny how the term “tolerance” changed it’s meaning from earlier times to present day.

Tolerance in this age (at least in America) means freely accepting any views as equally valid (other than the view of not accept other view as valid.)

That is like telling someone who has perfect pitch (aka me) to accept every wrong note as right.

 

To me, since I have perfect pitch, it doesn’t matter if everyone is singing the same way, if they’re all singing wrong, I would know it.

 

I think the right to stand up for what you believe to be true has been diminished because of “tolerance”

 

One cannot simply agree to everything as equally valid, there has to be a true answer, whereas everything else be false, unless the question is an open ended question.

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Essentially, to super simplify things, it’s a mere clash of values. One is “every view is equally true”, the other is “only certain things are true”.

 

Then comes the theory of relativity: everything is relative to the perception of where you stand. In theory, it’s true, what is lacking is the theory doesn’t have a defined origin point, where the standard is.

Where is the origin point? Only by seeing the origin, can this theory become a law of science just like law of thermodynamics and physics.

 

So this is where faith comes in: people can only have the origin point by faith, for there exists no empirical evidence on what the origin standard is, the basis of justice, the foundation of morality.

 

A general consensus we should love does exist.

 

Even the definition of love is very different from different culture, but it doesn’t change the fact that people want to be loved.

No law goes against love.

So what is love?

Love is an action, something that takes willpower and decision.

I daresay, try to replace “it” with your name and see where you stand. I can’t stand very well still, but I’m working on it.

 

-Love is patient. (Able to wait without becoming annoyed or anxious. uncomplaining – long-suffering – enduring – tolerant)

-Love is kind. (having a friendly, generous, and considerate nature)

-It does not envy. (Desire to have a quality, possession, or other attribute belonging to someone else)

-It does not boast. (It does not Talk with excessive pride and self-satisfaction about one’s achievements, possessions, or abilities.)

It is not proud. (Feeling or showing pride, haughty – arrogant – lofty – supercilious – conceited, as though it’s something more important than everything else)

It does not dishonor others (It is not rude: Offensively impolite or ill-mannered)

It is not self-seeking. (not thinking self as any lower, but thinking everyone else as higher)

It is not easily angered. (ties with being patient)

It keeps no records of wrongs. (ties with being patient, being able to forgive, as an action of will)

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. (evil is the absence of good: lies, cheats, rudeness, etc…)

It always protects. (keep safe from harm)

It always trusts. (Believe in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of.)

It always hopes. ( feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen)

It always perseveres. (Continue in a course of action even in the face of difficulty or with little or no indication of success.)

Love never fails. (fail is the absence of success, not the opposite)

 

Ok now do that to everyone you know? From your professor, to your boss, to your co-workers, classmate, family, friends, enemies, random hobo, paperboy, mailman, etc….

 

If you can’t at least do that, well… no one can love like that all the time.

 

But that doesn’t mean we are not supposed love like that all the time.

 

God does love like that all the time to everyone.

So why does evil exist? Why is this world broken?

Because of the lack of love.

Because of the absence of good.

Because of the withdrawal from the All-Good God.

 

Love means to tolerate.

If one knows the truth, he/she must tell it, otherwise he/she will be lying, not only to others, but to him/herself.

Tolerance does not mean to accept everything as equally valid. It means to be sympathetic to people who does not see the same way as you do.

One step higher is love.

Love compels those who knows truth must tell it to those who does not know, regardless of those who do not know may feel about truth while sympathizing to people who does not see the way you do.

 

So let’s love a little bit more.

 

Now I remember a prayer I prayed, about giving the best years of my life to God. Everything makes sense, God gave me opportunities to seek first the Kingdom and His righteousness, now I wait for “all these things will be given to you”

 

So definitely no girl for me, until God wakes me up like he did with Adam.

What I’m praying for:

1. Someone who is not anxious in anything, but in everything through prayer and petition

2. Someone who does not cap me, but push me farther towards God

3. Please sing in tune

4. Someone who will not be overwhelmed by me

5. Intensely Shiny

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Weird criteria

Sometimes I wish there is someone who would provoke me to do thing I haven’t even imagined of.

Too many people are stuck in the trap of “normality”, or conformity, herd mentality.

I guess humans are wired like that; does that make me unhuman?

I am no one’s fan, no sports team, no celebrity. I see no role model, I only see bits and pieces of good things and take it, almost like an artist puts pieces together to create something new.

I guess that’s the reason why I’m weird. Or maybe I am not weird, it’s people who call me weird who’s weird.

What makes someone weird?

According to dictionary.com, weird means

1.

involving or suggesting the supernatural; unearthly or uncanny: a weird sound; weird lights.

2.

fantastic; bizarre: a weird getup.

I have to admit I am weird then, because I am definitely “unearthly”, meaning I don’t belong in this world.

What is your identity? Where is your citizenship?

When people see me, they see me possibly as Chinese/Japanese/Korean.

When people see my passport, they see me as American.

But that’s just what people say, and it’s true I am those things, but these identities do not last.

My eternal identity is a child of God, citizen and heir of His Kingdom for all eternity.

Definitely unearthly.

I might as well put my criteria for a potential girl I may like, because I’m bored, and I want to write it out. Maybe people will understand why I still don’t have a girlfriend lol.

1. Doesn’t worry, trusting God is in total control, (and this can’t happen without knowing Jesus)

2. Expands my horizons instead of limiting it, saying “why not?” instead of “it’s impossible”.

3. Can stand up to my presence, someone who can kick my ass when my ass needs to be kicked.

4. a.) Skinnier than me b.) Completely okay with me skinnier than her

#1 already eliminates 99% of the girls I know..

Even without #1, #4 destroys candidates about most already.

Good luck to me..

God knows what I need.. so I wait..

19% battery left

Let’s see what I can write with this much battery, kekeke.

Like most other times, I come to write without knowing what to write.

I only got back home about 20 minutes ago (7:30pm ish). And now I’m eating dinner as I’m writing this post. My average day is like today, being away from my house the whole day until night.

So what am I doing now? Why am I so occupied?

I intern at South Bay Church by day, and tutor K-12 by night. Lol the 14% battery warning just came on. It’s probably because I am eating too.

I am in a nice transitional phase right now.

Before I graduated, I actually thought I would just enter the workforce, do some SWOT analysis, marketing, stuff relevant to my major. Now I don’t really know what I’ll do with it. Sure it’s something I can do, but it may not be what I will do.

Similarly, for those who are still studying, what you study now gives you ability to do things other who didn’t study what you study cannot do, but that does not mean you will do what you study.

Although it seems now your goals are good, later on you may see there are greater things. Do not limit yourself by stressing yourself “I must do this or else I fail at life” No, there are surely greater things than these.

Is what you study now important? By all means YES. What you study becomes a part of you. In my case, I can see how studying economics affected my perception of everyday life. The cruel realities of life and the brokenness of the world, I understand much deeper than if I never majored in economics. I have to say I also have a artistic mind, although I do not have visual artistic talent, I picture my life as an artwork.

I’m down to 5% now.

Worrying does nothing to make things better. Do not be anxious in anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, something something from Philippians 3 or 4.

For those who never prayed, why not? There is nothing to lose. For those who are not praying as much as they want, why not? Just do or do not, there is no try.  I’m writing this to myself to keep me on my toes. So I will always remember to depend on God first.

And I’m done

A short journey (?)

What is life that it should last a long time?

I really think I almost died by cake. It’s that easy. I wonder if I will die anytime now.

Choking on cake instilled a fear I had not known, fear of not able to breath. And death by cake is not something I would’ve liked or even thought of.. I’m glad it’s kind of over, but my fleshly body still has survival mode on (feel like I’m on the verge of hyperventilating). Even when I know where I will go, my body fights against it.

I’m pretty sure people will say nice things at my funeral. I would like it to be not too gloomy though. If I die, I want people to be happy for me. People will be sad, it’s only natural, but I’ll be with Jesus and that’s everything. I would want to die without noticing the process of dying. The process is a little uncomfortable, kind of just want to skip it n fast forward to the good part. But maybe I’ll come back if you do put me on life support, and I may be able to tell real cool stories when I get back, instead of regular cool stories.

I really don’t have anything to pass to anyone. I suppose I can start writing my will, although I have no witness or any lawyer, this will be a good guideline if I die tomorrow.

I started writing it, and then I thought some things are too personal to put it here, so I think I would write individual letters and put it to my Google doc in a folder called My Will. If I die, it’ll be useful, of I don’t, I have something to look at as I get older. I don’t know if I can do everything tonight. I did drink a big coffee, so…

I still wish I could have done a little more, a little more fishing, spend a little more time with people, maybe get a girlfriend? A wife? Children maybe? Or at least get a chance to say something about what I ________ (I don’t know what word to put, it’s a feeling but it’s not, it’s like me being me but it’s towards someone). Or it’s actually better if I take it to the grave. All the secrets are belong to me. Hue hue hue. I am positive I will always want to do more even if I die 60 years in the future, I’m more positive I’ll forget all these after I meet Jesus.

Phillipians 1:21 To live is to Christ and to die is to gain.

I can totally see what Paul was gong through. Just when I thought I had it figured out God teaches me more deeply. As if that God sinks me into a ocean of truth enveloping me to the blunt of this reality: the conflict between staying in this world and being with Jesus. 

There is also the desire of the fleshly mind and body top stay alive and keep awareness and sensations in this world of atoms. The fact is our perception of reality is limited to the reality we are in. We cannot make up something we cannot see existing in our world, but we may be able to find and see clues of something not of this world of atoms. If we are to say there need to be empirical proof, then I’m going to need empirical proof whoever is actually reading this exists, or someone that exists, not just a figment of my imagination.

I do have a present to give to someone if I stay alive long enough. I didn’t wrap it yet, so I doubt anyone will know where it is or even know if it’s a gift. So good luck to that person.

Then there’s the kids that in tutoring, not sure if anyone can replace me. My pride says. Well, I haven’t seen anyone come close to being similar to me so… My logic says. I’m pretty sure God can use my absence for something greater than having my presence on Earth. Reminded by the HS.

I do really want to write a book or two, but as I started, I realize what a mess it is without a roadmap. And so I wanted to read more and see more clearly the picture I want to draw. Not even 1% is firm, it’s all in pencil. Maybe I will live long enough to finish it? Maybe I’ll be like Mozart, love the way he writes his music.
I do want to go to sleep, not like dying sleep but sleep sleep. But I think caffeine kicked in and will last for a while. And I just got a cramp in my toe…

I’m actually writing all this on my bed, because I still don’t feel well enough to sit upright.

I do think I’m doing better, but what I think may just be an illusion.

What would my epitaph be? I want to make up something cool but I’m having a writer’s block moment right now..

“later” “Hin Lun Mak lies here does not” “Death by cake ez” “my cool story starts another chapter” “one does not simply stay on earth” “not sure if alive or alive”

So now my right foot toe cramps… Almost expecting my heart to cramp…
Or the roof to fall on me
Or a plane crash into my room
Or random assassin shank me
Or I stop breathing randomly
Etc…

Be creative and think about the possibilities! Be it death or life.

Don’t follow limited people and things, but follow the Everlasting God.

I do hope people consider why they believe what they believe: test it, because there might be a wall you put blocking the inconvenient Truth.

Be honest to yourself at the very least.

I do hope I wake up tomorrow. If I don’t, good bye, hopefully I’ll see you.

I am pretty tired, but that caffeine… *$3%&*7*$5%!3&’8:%#@%&-“^¶¢¢^π®£π×{¶| ••ππ÷°×=×°÷¶

Wants to go pee…

I had a dream last night and some people got me really mad I chucked a chair and broke a huge glass window because those people wanted me to do something I see no value in and is against my very existence. I woke up pretty mad.. The anger went away but it does concern me why I feel the way I feel.

Time to bust out the dream dictionary huehuehue..

 

Random thought of the day

When I play games online, I wonder what is going on in other people’s minds as they either: a) get owned Or b) owning. And some are douche, some are nice.

So are some of the comments I read from forums, comments, and blows.

The Internet is a place where people show their worst side and their best side.  Because of its anonymity, there are little consequences to Internet users.

It’s a pretty good place to get to know what the people you know truly are: their values, principles, personality. If it’s consistent with your view of what your friends are, good; those friendships will most likely last. But if what they do on the Internet is inconsistent with what they do on a daily basis, the so called “real world”, you really have to think about what kind of person those “friends” truly are. You may surprisingly agree with them, or you may surprisingly disagree with them. Either way, there are choices to be made. Do you want to get closer or do you want to get farther?

I think someone should do a study on people’s personality while they are online and find differences between that and so called “reality”. If only I’m a psychiatrist or something lol. For psych people, this is a good research topic.

Both the online world and “real world” are  reality. The people who interact with it are real.

Just for Fun

I’m not exactly in the mood for brain stimulating thinking right now, but I am still job searching. As I pause and surf the web, I saw an article on lifehacker, the topic being: Don’t Do What You Love. Do What You Are. 

So I decided to take a personality test on it again. I remember when I was younger, I was a ENFP, and then somehow turned to INFP. And tonight’s test results is still INFP. Most likely I will stay in this category for a while.

So how does this discovery affect me?

So far the jobs that I’ve been looking for are jobs that I would be probably be good at, because of what I’ve learned from college and what I’ve experienced in the past. I did not think about who I am.

Of course I know who I am.

Right?

But I’m just going to quote a psychology professor that I had in my last quarter of college on the first day of class.

“Who are you?”

“Who are you really?”

Rinse and Repeat.

So I rinse and repeat on myself tonight, since I don’t think I’ve think about who I am for a while now.

The test results gave me several links. Obviously it’s not perfect, but it’s a general construction of the type of person I am.

Personality test results

Ta-dah, your personality type is INFP!

Introverted (I) 57%	Extraverted (E) 43%
Intuitive (N) 55%	Sensing (S) 45%
Feeling (F) 70%	Thinking (T) 30%
Perceiving (P) 82%	Judging (J) 18%

Links

• INFP (Wikipedia)
• Roles and intelligence types (Wikipedia)
• Descriptions of the personality types (typelogic.com)
• Career info based on your type (personalitypage.com)
• Relationship info based on your type (personalitypage.com)

And in the “Career info based on your type” I can’t say I disagree with it.

Possible Career Paths for the INFP:

Writers

Counselors / Social Workers

Teachers / Professors

Psychologists

Psychiatrists

Musicians

Clergy / Religious Workers

I’m definitely not certified to do any of those jobs that require certification, other than musician and writer, but I think people that know me can see those job qualities in me. Or rather, me doing those jobs.

Maybe I should have been a psych major. Still, I enjoy economics because it does have psychology in it, knowing what people’s unlimited desires and limited sources, and the theories that go around them.
I really like this description on wiki as well. “Healer”

Especially the Love and Relationship part: “so they are best suited to a partner who can adapt to these changing needs”.

It’s not that I can’t find people I like, it’s people that will able to adapt to me painlessly are just a little rare. But that’s the only way things will last and that’s the way I want to do.

I’m actually challenging myself to never break up with anyone. An almost impossible challenge to do in this era.

Good luck to me.

Yeah so this is just for fun. If you want to take a personality test. Check out this website.

http://pstypes.blogspot.com/2009/03/free-jungian-type-tests.html

I did Kisa Personality Test mainly because it did have some unfamiliar questions to other personality tests. Take your time in knowing thy self.

It is said that if you know your enemies and know yourself, you will not be imperiled in a hundred battles; if you do not know your enemies but do know yourself, you will win one and lose one; if you do not know your enemies nor yourself, you will be imperiled in every single battle. – Sun Tzu

知彼知己，百戰不殆；不知彼而知己，一勝一負；不知彼，不知己，每戰必殆 – 孫子

Moving On

Another perspective.

When one is told about having a fork on the road, most people won’t see the above picture.

Imagine yourself having never saw a fork on the road (The one where the road splits to two directions). Would you have imagined something similar to the picture above?

Similarly, what we have seen, what we have heard, what we have experienced also deceives us, granting us an illusion of familiarity and safety.

I can almost relate this to the Matrix movies. The people dwelling in the Matrix lives, but never really lived. The Matrix series are very entertaining to watch. Everything stereotypical about Hollywood movies are in the whole movie series, yet there’s an important idea that challenges our everyday lives. How do we know if we’re not living in the Matrix right now?

Honestly, I think not, and majority of people would agree with me. However, this world we are in is very similar to the Matrix because we are not truly free. Our thoughts and ideas are almost always restricted by our environment such as the way we grew up, our family’s influence, our classmate’s influence, our society’s expectations of success. Most of our values are developed by the influences I mentioned above. I’m not going to discuss whether it’s a bad thing or not, but I am pointing out we humans as a whole are attracted to the prescient of familiarity.

Now I have to point out those individualistic individuals who thinks that they are above this prescient of familiarity. One can argue one’s ideas can be truly unique, (I am being very careful with the wording here, because everyone is truly unique) but I think ideas can be analyzed just as matter can be analyzed. Just as matter is laws of thermodynamics, I think ideas too are limited by the same type of law, for Nothing_comes_from_nothing.

(Damn it, now I have to analyze how ideas come from and how humans are different than animals…)

(Or I can stop here and leave a cliffhanger for next time so I can start eating lunch)

The above is my thought process as I debate on whether to continue writing this post as of this moment.

My stomach wins.

So it begins （again）

I am finally back to a place of blur and obscurity. I believe this is the third time I try to keep my blog active, let’s see how it goes.

Here I am at another fork in my life, except it’s not the simple pick two game, it’s a bajillion different options of where I can go and what I can do. All I have to do is to take the first step. I have a great idea for an app (unlike anything you’ve seen on any Appstore) , I’ve started writing a book on Google Docs (2 pages, stuck on a different type of fork, maybe it’ll turn out to be a short story, or it can become the next Narnia), and then there are many different types of careers that I am capable of doing.

But before making decision to all that, I have to consider what I value most in this life. It all leads to the question many people are asking, “What is my purpose in life?”

Well I already know what is my purpose, in fact, I know what YOUR purpose is. It’s an outrageous and absurd statement, but not too outrageous if you were to know about the truth about existence, the One who made it and why.

I originally began to write this to talk about random things, but since my hands has lead me up to this, then I will share a little more of what science says about God. (Man, I thought this post was going to be short…)

#1 “But science already proves God doesn’t exist?” or #2 “Evolution proves we come from monkeys.” And there are many “scientific” statements that argues against the existence of a omnipotent, omniscient, and loving God.

That’s not really the important part, but nevertheless, for the sake of this post, I need to answer those two statements at the very least. I’ll talk about the important part once I finish explaining. You can skip this if you want to, just press CTRL+F or Command/F if you’re on iOS

#1

#2

*4S.

#1 “But science already proves God doesn’t exist?”

Firstly I will define science using online dictionaries, I’ll list 2, but you can look it up in different places as well.

Science
– (from Dictionary.com) systematic knowledge of the physical or material world gained through observation and experimentation.
– (from Merriam-Webster) knowledge or a system of knowledge covering general truths or the operation of general laws especially as obtained and tested through scientific method

(observation/question, create hypothesis, predict results, test hypothesis by observing/testing experiment, end with analysis)

I am defining science as the way to gain knowledge of something. There are other definitions for science as well, such as “the state of knowing : knowledge as distinguished from ignorance or misunderstanding”

From the above definitions, in the simplest terms, the scientific method is the following: look at something, do something with it and see if anything interesting happens, look at the results and see if it worked out.
(This is my interpretation of the scientific method for easier digestion for readers)

The first step, “look at something”, the basis of science, defined as a way of gaining knowledge, only works on the physical and tangible.

Is God physical and tangible? I will not define God in human terms but by His own Word. John 4:24 “God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship him in spirit and in truth.” Jesus himself says “God is spirit” This leads to the conclusion: the scientific method cannot be used on God, therefore science is incapable of proving and denying God’s existence.

I just used the scientific method by the way to prove scientific method is useless on the existence of God.

(Question/Observation: Can science prove God’s existence? Hypothesis: If the scientific method cannot observe God, then science is incapable of prove nor deny God’s existence. Experiment: Find definition for science and scientific method, in additional to find the composition of God in reliable sources. Analysis: Scientific Method can only be used on the physical and material. “God is Spirit”. Spirit is neither physical and material. Scientific Method cannot be used. Conclusion: Science cannot prove nor deny God’s existence.)

Are you still reading? I congratulate you on your willingness to seek truth and knowledge. Jesus says “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.” Matthew 7:7
I hope you can find what you seek in this post: E.G. purpose of your life, or for all human life.

#2 “Evolution proves we come from monkeys.”

I’m not an expert on this question, so if you really want to look, here’s a page I found. I believe you should find opposing arguments and see which ones are more logical. The truth always wins. Think of this as if you having no more clean underwear left and you’ve already flipped a side.

http://www.answersingenesis.org/articles/nab2/humans-evolve-apelike-creatures

http://www.proof-of-evolution.com/ape-to-human-evolution.html

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20110119153936AANNkKn

（I don’t know why but Google Search is strangely for proving how we don’t come from Apes, I typed “how DNA proves we come from apes”, “evolution proves we come from monkeys”, and “evolution proves we come from apes” see if you get the same results)

*4S

So that stuff above is not really that important. If that’s not important, what is? This message is the most valuable thing that you will ever hear and should you choose to believe, it will change your life. This is the Christian Gospel (not Catholicism, not Mormon, not Jehovah’s Witness) in its simplest form and all that you need. I hope I don’t get owned by any copy write for sharing this. So I will write this in a different way. Hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing this.

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A Day In the Life

Scene 1: Outside Science and Engineering Library in UC Santa Cruz on a Wednesday Afternoon.

Two strangers begin to walk up to a poor fellow studying for Organic Chemistry

STRANGER A

(walks up behind Poor Fellow)

Have you 5 minutes of your time?

POOR FELLOW

(Haven’t turned around yet)

I don’t want to buy your stinky perfume. Shoo! Go Away!

(Turns around upon realization it is not the perfume salesperson)

Oh… Sorry, I was really annoyed by this perfume guy. He was here earlier going around bothering everyone. What do you want?

STRANGER B

(whispers to stranger A)

다음사람으로 넘어가는게 좋을거같아?

(Show Captions when possible: “Maybe we should move on to the next person)

STRANGER A

그냥 해

（Poor Fellow looks at them curiously)

(Show Captions when possible: Just do it)

STRANGER B

(turns to Poor Fellow)

So we’re from this campus ministry called KCCC, and here’s this little booklet I would like to share with you.

POOR FELLOW

Oh sure, I’m bored from studying.

STRANGER A

So here’s this booklet.

(Shows booklet to Poor Fellow)

(Projector: Cover of 4 Spiritual Laws)

STRANGER A

(Reads straight up from book, flipping cover so only one page is shown at a time, using a pen to point at the words in the book as Stranger A reads to Poor Fellow. Poor Fellow nods occasionally along with responsive mmhmm during the reading eventually stares at his fingernails and attempts to clean them)

(Projector: Show pages as Stranger A reads)

Just as there are physical laws that govern
the physical universe, so are there spiritual laws
that govern your relationship with God.

God loves you and offers a wonderful plan for your life.

God’s Love
“God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever
believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life” (John 3:16, NIV).

God’s Plan
[Christ speaking] “I came that they might have life, and might have it abundantly”
[that it might be full and meaningful] (John 10:10).

Why is it that most people are not experiencing that abundant life?

Because…

Man is sinful and separated from God.
Therefore, he cannot know and experience
God’s love and plan for his life.

Man is Sinful
“All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God” (Romans 3:23).

Man was created to have fellowship with God; but, because of his own stubborn
self-will, he chose to go his own independent way and fellowship with God was broken.
This self-will, characterized by an attitude of active rebellion or passive indifference,
is an evidence of what the Bible calls sin.

Man Is Separated
“The wages of sin is death” [spiritual separation from God] (Romans 6:23).

This diagram illustrates that God is holy and man is sinful. A great gulf separates the two. The arrows illustrate that man is continually trying to reach God and the abundant life through his own efforts, such as a good life, philosophy, or religion
-but he inevitably fails.

The third law explains the only way to bridge this gulf…

Jesus Christ is God’s only provision for man’s sin.
Through Him you can know and experience
God’s love and plan for your life.

He Died In Our Place
“God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners,
Christ died for us” (Romans 5:8).

He Rose from the Dead
“Christ died for our sins… He was buried… He was raised on the third day,
according to the Scriptures… He appeared to Peter, then to the twelve.
After that He appeared to more than five hundred…” (1 Corinthians 15:3-6).

He Is the Only Way to God
“Jesus said to him, ‘I am the way, and the truth, and the life, no one comes to
the Father but through Me'” (John 14:6).

This diagram illustrates that God has bridged the gulf that separates us from Him by sending His Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross in our place to pay the penalty for our sins.

It is not enough just to know these three laws…

We must individually receive Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord;
then we can know and experience God’s love and plan for our lives.

We Must Receive Christ
“As many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children
of God, even to those who believe in His name” (John 1:12).

We Receive Christ Through Faith
“By grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves,
it is the gift of God; not as result of works that no one should boast” (Ephesians 2:8,9).

When We Receive Christ, We Experience a New Birth
(Read John 3:1-8.)

We Receive Christ Through Personal Invitation
[Christ speaking] “Behold, I stand at the door and knock;
if any one hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him” (Revelation 3:20).

Receiving Christ involves turning to God from self (repentance) and trusting
Christ to come into our lives to forgive our sins and to make us what He wants us to be.
Just to agree intellectually that Jesus Christ is the Son of God and that He died on the cross
for our sins is not enough. Nor is it enough to have an emotional experience.
We receive Jesus Christ by faith, as an act of the will.

These two circles represent two kinds of lives:

Self-Directed Life
S-Self is on the throne
-Christ is outside the life
-Interests are directed by self, often
resulting in discord and frustration

Christ-Directed Life
-Christ is in the life and on the throne
S-Self is yielding to Christ,
resulting in harmony with God’s plan
-Interests are directed by Christ,
resulting in harmony with God’s plan

(End of Reading)

STRANGER A

(Talks to Poor Fellow face to face)

Which circle best represents your life?

POOR FELLOW

(Points to the left circle)

STRANGER A

Now, which circle would you like to have represent your life?

POOR FELLOW

I don’t know yet.

STRANGER A

It is a pretty big decision, so if you ever want to accept Jesus in your life, you can do this.

(Points to the booklet again, with the pen, and reads)

The following explains how you can receive Christ:

You Can Receive Christ Right Now by Faith Through Prayer
(Prayer is talking with God)

God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude
of your heart. The following is a suggested prayer:

Lord Jesus, I need You. Thank You for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life and receive You as my Savior and Lord. Thank You for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life.
Take control of the throne of my life. Make me the kind of person You want me to be.

Does this prayer express the desire of your heart? If it does, I invite you to pray this
prayer right now, and Christ will come into your life, as He promised.

POOR FELLOW

I’ll see, I think I need to know more first before I do anything.

STRANGER B

That’s good. Let me just show you what happens when you receive Jesus in your life.

(Read up to 5:18)

You know we actually have a thing tonight at Social Science RM 110 @ 7PM. We meet on every Wednesday night. You can come check it out.

POOR FELLOW

Sure, can I get your number in case I want to go?

STRANGER B

(takes out phone)

Sure.

POOR FELLOW

My number is 820104313344, call me or text me. I got to go.

STRANGER A + B

Nice meeting you. Hope we see you again.

(Waves bye, walks around for next victim)

Fin

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Now wasn’t that a great story? Maybe I’ll continue it on a different post.

Let’s see if I can do that fashion blog up next time.

Maybe I’ll continue in Ch. 1 of my book.

Still needs to find a real job.

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This post was almost got deleted 😮 Thank God for reminding me to Ctrl-A Ctrl-C this whole thing before it bugged on me.

Oh and I just got a haircut. I’ll post a picture when I have better lighting conditions.

This is where I write, this is where you read, this is where we snack on pictures of food and thoughts

While I’m away, I will be updating this, sering as I don’t have to go to school anymore,n not have a job yet, I can totally focus on blogging

hue hue hue br 那个

 

It’s been a while, n I should be writing something else….

I am supposed to be writing an astonishing scene right now for my playwriting class. It is pretty easy, but I would actually have to use my imagination. I’ll do it as soon as I finish this post. Writing about what I actually want to write is more enjoyable than having to write stuff that people want me to write.

Anyways, it’s been a long time since I’ve really posted anything. It doesn’t mean my brain stopped working. It just means that I have been unable to get what has been on my mind in an organized form in which I can put it into English words that is comprehensible to the general public, which in this case would be you the reader, if anyone is reading at all.

Has it been 1 week or 2 weeks since I’ve last posted up a real post? I think I forgot the reason why I started to post blogs in the first place.

So many times, I start something, but I forget the reason why I start that something. I guess this post will be about this weakness of mine.

For some reason, I can get really fired up about something. I would be like “Hell Yeah Let’s do it” and some how get distracted and lost the original purpose of what I wanted to do. And so what I wanted to do from the beginning often turn into things that I do not want to do. This expands more past than what I want to do, this goes into what I want in life, what my goals are, what I want to eat, what I want to plan, what I want to write.

Originally, when I logged on to wordpress, I really have no idea what to write about. All I remember is that I should write something, even if it’s crap, since it’s how people become better writers, and I want to become a better writer.

My lack of self-discipline and many distractions + responsibilities dragged me out of blogging for a little bit. Ionno how long this roller coaster ride will keep on going. It’s been going on for a while. For now, I can blog for a little while until I get distracted again, like everything else I do apparently.

This experience again reminds me of how unfocused I am(Is this the word for it?). This is actually pretty sad really. I wanted to write something here again, but I don’t really feel like saying that stuff directly, especially when I’m pretty tired. So I’ll just write some words and if anyone can figure out them meaning behind these words, good for you. If you can’t, just make up some story with these words that will soon follow.

Heart

Freedom

Sake

Tri/Rec/Hexagon,etc

Breaking 없어

Change

Boom

Wall

Step

Then…

Time to go go go

 

Maybe I should try to finish a story that I started in the summer. The original idea for it was great, but I’ve been reading too many narratives and academic writing, so I forgot how dialogues go. I’ll have to do some research before I can start writing… Now good luck to me, cuz I’ll probably put it off because there will always be something else to do. Like making a mix or playing HoN or making Shin Ramyun or do my laundry.

Who am I right now? The past makes me who I am. What about now? The decisions and choices I will have is very confusing. If anyone wants to pray for me, please do. I want to be able to love more. If I really learn to love, I would be able to use that love to focus on what needs to be done, on who needs to be loved, on what my priorities should be.

I really have to finish my scenario, so I’ll go. Later