Expectations

Sometimes when I sing, especially in front of people I don’t know well, I have to hold back, because in my perspective, it may trigger negative things for people, such as jealousy, competitiveness, and crazy expectations of. me.

It’s easier to be “average”

To not stand out.

To do so would be to deny myself.

While I don’t try to stand out, I do what I am comfortable doing.

Unless everyone else sucks, then I need to make myself suck, sing really quietly, or not sing at all.

I think this is applicable for lots of people, where they stand out in certain areas so much they want to just hide,

the part of where it stands out, just so people wouldn’t expect so much out of them.

 

This I wonder:

Is it a good thing for people to have crazy expectations? I can see how it gives motivation for me to be better than my “normal”.

I sing better when I have an audience: better sustain, with extra breath, with facial expressions, articulated consonants and vowels more, etc…

Having an audience makes me nervous, or excited, I cannot tell when I’m in the moment, whatever it is, it’s energy I can use to perform.

The bad part about it is it can be pressuring and cumbersome to deal with those expectations, especially unrealistic ones.

I prefer not to deal with it.

On another note, sometimes I wish people would at least sing in the right key the whole way through…

I don’t tolerate bad singing well, I probably won’t say anything, but I’ll cringe and leave/run away.

Please don’t make me sit through it.

 

This reminded me of something more applicable, about the definition of tolerance.

It’s funny how the term “tolerance” changed it’s meaning from earlier times to present day.

Tolerance in this age (at least in America) means freely accepting any views as equally valid (other than the view of not accept other view as valid.)

That is like telling someone who has perfect pitch (aka me) to accept every wrong note as right.

 

To me, since I have perfect pitch, it doesn’t matter if everyone is singing the same way, if they’re all singing wrong, I would know it.

 

I think the right to stand up for what you believe to be true has been diminished because of “tolerance”

 

One cannot simply agree to everything as equally valid, there has to be a true answer, whereas everything else be false, unless the question is an open ended question.

Essentially, to super simplify things, it’s a mere clash of values. One is “every view is equally true”, the other is “only certain things are true”.

 

Then comes the theory of relativity: everything is relative to the perception of where you stand. In theory, it’s true, what is lacking is the theory doesn’t have a defined origin point, where the standard is.

Where is the origin point? Only by seeing the origin, can this theory become a law of science just like law of thermodynamics and physics.

 

So this is where faith comes in: people can only have the origin point by faith, for there exists no empirical evidence on what the origin standard is, the basis of justice, the foundation of morality.

 

A general consensus we should love does exist.

 

Even the definition of love is very different from different culture, but it doesn’t change the fact that people want to be loved.

No law goes against love.

So what is love?

Love is an action, something that takes willpower and decision.

I daresay, try to replace “it” with your name and see where you stand. I can’t stand very well still, but I’m working on it.

 

-Love is patient. (Able to wait without becoming annoyed or anxious. uncomplaining – long-suffering – enduring – tolerant)

-Love is kind. (having a friendly, generous, and considerate nature)

-It does not envy. (Desire to have a quality, possession, or other attribute belonging to someone else)

-It does not boast. (It does not Talk with excessive pride and self-satisfaction about one’s achievements, possessions, or abilities.)

It is not proud. (Feeling or showing pride, haughty – arrogant – lofty – supercilious – conceited, as though it’s something more important than everything else)

It does not dishonor others (It is not rude: Offensively impolite or ill-mannered)

It is not self-seeking. (not thinking self as any lower, but thinking everyone else as higher)

It is not easily angered. (ties with being patient)

It keeps no records of wrongs. (ties with being patient, being able to forgive, as an action of will)

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. (evil is the absence of good: lies, cheats, rudeness, etc…)

It always protects. (keep safe from harm)

It always trusts. (Believe in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of.)

It always hopes. ( feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen)

It always perseveres. (Continue in a course of action even in the face of difficulty or with little or no indication of success.)

Love never fails. (fail is the absence of success, not the opposite)

 

Ok now do that to everyone you know? From your professor, to your boss, to your co-workers, classmate, family, friends, enemies, random hobo, paperboy, mailman, etc….

 

If you can’t at least do that, well… no one can love like that all the time.

 

But that doesn’t mean we are not supposed love like that all the time.

 

God does love like that all the time to everyone.

So why does evil exist? Why is this world broken?

Because of the lack of love.

Because of the absence of good.

Because of the withdrawal from the All-Good God.

 

Love means to tolerate.

If one knows the truth, he/she must tell it, otherwise he/she will be lying, not only to others, but to him/herself.

Tolerance does not mean to accept everything as equally valid. It means to be sympathetic to people who does not see the same way as you do.

One step higher is love.

Love compels those who knows truth must tell it to those who does not know, regardless of those who do not know may feel about truth while sympathizing to people who does not see the way you do.

 

So let’s love a little bit more.

 

Now I remember a prayer I prayed, about giving the best years of my life to God. Everything makes sense, God gave me opportunities to seek first the Kingdom and His righteousness, now I wait for “all these things will be given to you”

 

So definitely no girl for me, until God wakes me up like he did with Adam.

What I’m praying for:

1. Someone who is not anxious in anything, but in everything through prayer and petition

2. Someone who does not cap me, but push me farther towards God

3. Please sing in tune

4. Someone who will not be overwhelmed by me

5. Intensely Shiny

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A short journey (?)

What is life that it should last a long time?

I really think I almost died by cake. It’s that easy. I wonder if I will die anytime now.

Choking on cake instilled a fear I had not known, fear of not able to breath. And death by cake is not something I would’ve liked or even thought of.. I’m glad it’s kind of over, but my fleshly body still has survival mode on (feel like I’m on the verge of hyperventilating). Even when I know where I will go, my body fights against it.

I’m pretty sure people will say nice things at my funeral. I would like it to be not too gloomy though. If I die, I want people to be happy for me. People will be sad, it’s only natural, but I’ll be with Jesus and that’s everything. I would want to die without noticing the process of dying. The process is a little uncomfortable, kind of just want to skip it n fast forward to the good part. But maybe I’ll come back if you do put me on life support, and I may be able to tell real cool stories when I get back, instead of regular cool stories.

I really don’t have anything to pass to anyone. I suppose I can start writing my will, although I have no witness or any lawyer, this will be a good guideline if I die tomorrow.

I started writing it, and then I thought some things are too personal to put it here, so I think I would write individual letters and put it to my Google doc in a folder called My Will. If I die, it’ll be useful, of I don’t, I have something to look at as I get older. I don’t know if I can do everything tonight. I did drink a big coffee, so…

I still wish I could have done a little more, a little more fishing, spend a little more time with people, maybe get a girlfriend? A wife? Children maybe? Or at least get a chance to say something about what I ________ (I don’t know what word to put, it’s a feeling but it’s not, it’s like me being me but it’s towards someone). Or it’s actually better if I take it to the grave. All the secrets are belong to me. Hue hue hue. I am positive I will always want to do more even if I die 60 years in the future, I’m more positive I’ll forget all these after I meet Jesus.

Phillipians 1:21 To live is to Christ and to die is to gain.

I can totally see what Paul was gong through. Just when I thought I had it figured out God teaches me more deeply. As if that God sinks me into a ocean of truth enveloping me to the blunt of this reality: the conflict between staying in this world and being with Jesus. 

There is also the desire of the fleshly mind and body top stay alive and keep awareness and sensations in this world of atoms. The fact is our perception of reality is limited to the reality we are in. We cannot make up something we cannot see existing in our world, but we may be able to find and see clues of something not of this world of atoms. If we are to say there need to be empirical proof, then I’m going to need empirical proof whoever is actually reading this exists, or someone that exists, not just a figment of my imagination.

I do have a present to give to someone if I stay alive long enough. I didn’t wrap it yet, so I doubt anyone will know where it is or even know if it’s a gift. So good luck to that person.

Then there’s the kids that in tutoring, not sure if anyone can replace me. My pride says. Well, I haven’t seen anyone come close to being similar to me so… My logic says. I’m pretty sure God can use my absence for something greater than having my presence on Earth. Reminded by the HS.

I do really want to write a book or two, but as I started, I realize what a mess it is without a roadmap. And so I wanted to read more and see more clearly the picture I want to draw. Not even 1% is firm, it’s all in pencil. Maybe I will live long enough to finish it? Maybe I’ll be like Mozart, love the way he writes his music.
I do want to go to sleep, not like dying sleep but sleep sleep. But I think caffeine kicked in and will last for a while. And I just got a cramp in my toe…

I’m actually writing all this on my bed, because I still don’t feel well enough to sit upright.

I do think I’m doing better, but what I think may just be an illusion.

What would my epitaph be? I want to make up something cool but I’m having a writer’s block moment right now..

“later” “Hin Lun Mak lies here does not” “Death by cake ez” “my cool story starts another chapter” “one does not simply stay on earth” “not sure if alive or alive”

So now my right foot toe cramps… Almost expecting my heart to cramp…
Or the roof to fall on me
Or a plane crash into my room
Or random assassin shank me
Or I stop breathing randomly
Etc…

Be creative and think about the possibilities! Be it death or life.

Don’t follow limited people and things, but follow the Everlasting God.

I do hope people consider why they believe what they believe: test it, because there might be a wall you put blocking the inconvenient Truth.

Be honest to yourself at the very least.

I do hope I wake up tomorrow. If I don’t, good bye, hopefully I’ll see you.

I am pretty tired, but that caffeine… *$3%&*7*$5%!3&’8:%#@%&-“^¶¢¢^π®£π×{¶| ••ππ÷°×=×°÷¶

Wants to go pee…

I had a dream last night and some people got me really mad I chucked a chair and broke a huge glass window because those people wanted me to do something I see no value in and is against my very existence. I woke up pretty mad.. The anger went away but it does concern me why I feel the way I feel.

Time to bust out the dream dictionary huehuehue..

 

Comment with 1,333 Words

Originally I wanted to comment on this, but it turned into an essay. So I replied to that article with this and elaborated on it + add economic arguments. I’m gonna post what I meant to post here. This is a very intense issue that needs to be addressed. Honestly, what I wrote is something I would consider heretical a few years back, but it’s something God revealed to me. It is pretty damn bloody offensive to lots of people, possibly including my own family. I’m very open to discussion, so hit me up.

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In the present day, though homosexuals cannot reproduce, they can adopt and create an imitation of the family of blood relations. So in the economic sense, there are little negative externalities other than the economic benefits that normally comes to a male-female marriage are withheld by the government and lawmakers.

 

It’s also economically inefficient for the government to act according to moral values, because unless everyone believes in the same moral standard it’s impossible for there to be a true and perfect verdict. It’s clear that people have different moral standards, this article wouldn’t be posted if we don’t. So our system of law should be based on economics, rather than morals, because money is the common denominator (it’s a sad common denominator our society have today).

 

Here is an example of why it’s economically inefficient to base on morals, and I believe most will cringe at this idea, if not all): If someone is murdered, the family experience loss of someone who can provide (income), loss of productivity from painful emotions (income), and loss of money spent on grave/lawsuit/possible debts incurred (money again), so in theory, loss of a loved one can be financially compensated in the long run. But somehow our system ignore all common economic theory and instead does 2 things: 1). kill the murderer (lose taxpayer money and potential economic gain in society) 2) spend taxpayer money that could have been used for something else and keep him, feed him, give him shelter, away from the people who actually work (lose more money than killing him).

 

And answering the question of this article, yes, homosexuality is a sin, just as much as deceit, greed, adultery, etc, especially PRIDE, the one sin that people (non-Christians) never accuse themselves of. People may say money is the root of all evil, but no, the real evil is pride. Pride is what changed Lucifer into Satan. Pride is what happened when Eve decided she knew better than God when she ate the forbidden fruit and when Adam decided to be passive (Adam did NOTHING to help Eve) and follow Eve’s decision rather than God’s command (Both big problems people have these days). It is PRIDE in morals that prevents giving rights to LGBT and treating them as second class citizen. It is PRIDE that causes wars (not the only reason but one of them). It is PRIDE that republicans want to screw everyone over other than the 1% and win control. It is PRIDE that people always want to get more stuff than others. It is PRIDE that some women decide their body and their future is somehow more important than the one inside of her (I know there are certain times like rape/ life threatening stuff, glad I ain’t a judge, God is, and will decide depending on the situation what is true).

[This is the part that I really need confirmation on]

But the point is this, although it is CLEARLY written in the Bible that acts of homosexuality are sin from both before Jesus and after Jesus, there are no words in the Bible at all that say (or somewhere along the lines of) “you shall impose what you know as right to those who do not know what is right”, Bible talks about proclaiming what is right by your lives, not by your control over other people, just as God gave us free will, even though he has absolute power to control us. Bible talks about many things about relinquishing rights as well: “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy. But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust.” (Mt.5:43-46), If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic.(Luke 6:29), and the most important one from Jesus’s example, who humbled himself from his glory, when he is GOD, relinquished his rights to die for people who hates him, his enemies. He died and resurrected to save not only the Jews, but to the non-Jews as well (Roman Empire at the time basically represents the world, and notice how Israel is the center of Eurasiafrica, so Gospel is spread because of another “coincidence”). The Bible also says “Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn’t do it, sins. (James 4:17). The theme of James Ch. 4 is submission to God’s will. This homosexuality issue is a very narrow line. [Is it good to impose our beliefs on people who don’t know the truth?] Change in behavior does not necessary mean change of heart. And why should Christians worry about anything other than do what God says?  (1. Love God 2. Love Neighbor = everyone else) Nowhere in the Bible does it say, “save your own life” or “protect your family”. The Bible’s most listed command is “Do not be afraid”, because God is in FULL control, even if it seems evil, the absence of good, keeps growing. I recommend any Christian to read Job, and notice how God set limits to what Satan can do. Unfortunately “Christian” conservative leaders do not live as the Bible says, (if I talk about democrats I would have to talk about abortion and I’m too exhausted to go there right now, but anytime someone uses God’s name for him/herself, please don’t follow them). If anyone is still reading, you must notice the change in how I wrote, I thought it was going to be short with a simple economic analysis. I hope this was not a waste of time writing this and shows what is really true. This is the first comment I wrote on HuffingtonPost because I felt bored, so maybe this is a good opportunity to write something that’s usually not seen nor heard of. Truth will always offend people.

 

And to get rid of bias as best as I can. I’m not gay, nor do I know any friends that are gay, nor I want to know any gay guy friends. (My pride is speaking: Please don’t hit on me). Not sure if I don’t want to give them opportunity to do more gay things or I’m just completely repulsed by the idea of someone doing gay things to me. Really there is no difference of severity of sin, but the feeling of someone gay hitting on me is like having someone throw feces at my face; I have to dodge it.

 

Summing up: 1) Government can’t really punish/prevent sin 2) All sins are equal 3) True Christians should live according to the Bible, not by their feelings of disgust or anything else. 4) Something I secretly inferred for those who are thinking about Nietzsche but I didn’t really go deep into it, good luck 5) Everyone needs Jesus. 6) Truth makes many enemies, even from people who are your family and friends. (This should sound familiar, if not, see Matthew 10:34-36)

 

I really don’t think I would be able to say all of the above to people I know, because they’re not ready for how intense this is, and I’m not a good speaker, but at least I wrote it out. I’m not anyone other than a follower/willful slave of Christ. I’m also unemployed almost employed freshly out of college. If I offend anyone, be offended, see why you’re offended, and see if your way is better than what God says. I’ll end with what Buddha said at his deathbed: “Behold now, bikkhus, I declare to you: all conditioned things are of a nature to decay. Strive on with earnestness.” (paraphrase: everything is going to decay, good luck and try hard). Or what Jesus said when he’s ascended to heaven: “18 Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” <-reason I wrote all this, please find truth if you dare.

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So this is the second time I tried to post it up, because I somehow hit some key and everything got deleted. Other than the 1,333 words that I saved on MSWord, everything here is new. Basically, I think LGBT + the 1% are the prostitutes and tax-collectors of our day. Yet I have heard no one talk about this (except the person who blogged about this issue, who is the one who got me start to think about all this, he probably doesn’t even know that I read his blog. I just randomly saw his blog on Facebook and read it and didn’t follow him. His locked his blog now. It’ll be fun if he reads this. I hope he talks about this one day because he is certainly in a position to do so.) I think people really don’t talk or even think about this because people are not ready to hear nor change the perspectives that has been so ingrained in their minds. I really hope I can post this without fail like last time. The Word is a double-edged sword; it affects me just as much as it affects you who reads what I write. I don’t think I am ready to reach out to gay guys, nor I think I ever will, but supposedly God brings them to me, I’ll be ready, because God is good all the time and will never do things to harm me.

Omg… this is going to top 2,000 words.

My recent experiences: so after I came back from my missions trip, I really missed worshiping in song and being together with other bros and sis. Then I thought about why do I only go to church on Sundays? I mean we Christians are the church. Denominations are all human-made. The “Holy” way of worship is completely human concept. I understand that God set apart a day to make it Holy, but why not all days? Why not really be the church and live like how the Christians in Acts do: sharing everything, selling everything, no one was without anything they needed. Oh, right, communism, not going to fly, especially nowadays. Totally impossible is just what I think of right now this second, but then now that I really think about it, is it really impossible? Impossible is nothing. (reminds me from Korea Conference 불가능은 없다) 26 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Not sure how it’s gonna fly, but it’s not really my concern. I went a little off track with my ideas here, the point is, as of now, it’s not possible for most people to live as a church, I don’t think any government would let that happen because it really is literally God’s kingdom on Earth, running on the Holy Spirit and God’s Word alone. What matters is I decided to go to two churches instead of just going to cornerstone.

So by being a newcomer, I remember how bloody weird it felt. I found that church playing with my Youversion bible app on my phone and clicked live, typed in 95148, south bay church, looked them up, see their doctrines, see their hours, decided to check them out.

I don’t think I ever was a newcomer because I always knew someone at church. This time was the first time I don’t know anyone. They’re a pretty recently made church from 2009 and they have some big plans for NorCal, like raising up new churches here, and getting people who don’t know Jesus to come. It’s a medium size church with 4 services 9am -1pm. They don’t have a lot going on, they basically divide it into 4 things, Sunday, kids, life group, n volunteer, they also partner with a church in Ethiopia and focus on them rather than doing everything.
 
But yeah I like big plans, especially when I know God is gonna make it rain revival in NorCal. So I’ll keep going there and see what I can do for them.

So yeah, if it’s weird for me, who’s been attending church for more than 12 years, it’s going to be bloody weird for non-Christians who know no one. So far I met got one guy’s number and met some people, probably can’t remember their names. It’s gonna be a lot more awkward for the “sinners” of our age. Please pray for them, yourself, those who teach, and me (not a teacher, at least for now).

And I’m tired now. There is so much more blessings God poured out on me that I cannot use mere words. Anyways, always remember to seek what is true, not abstractions, nor theories, but truth.

Oh and world is not ending in Dec 21, 2012, Source: “The hour and the date unknown” 36 “But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son,[a] but only the Father. written in the Bible. I write this so I can tag Apocalypse without sounding retarded and make random people see this.

 

So it begins (again)

I am finally back to a place of blur and obscurity. I believe this is the third time I try to keep my blog active, let’s see how it goes.

Here I am at another fork in my life, except it’s not the simple pick two game, it’s a bajillion different options of where I can go and what I can do. All I have to do is to take the first step. I have a great idea for an app (unlike anything you’ve seen on any Appstore) , I’ve started writing a book on Google Docs (2 pages, stuck on a different type of fork, maybe it’ll turn out to be a short story, or it can become the next Narnia), and then there are many different types of careers that I am capable of doing.

But before making decision to all that, I have to consider what I value most in this life. It all leads to the question many people are asking, “What is my purpose in life?”

Well I already know what is my purpose, in fact, I know what YOUR purpose is. It’s an outrageous and absurd statement, but not too outrageous if you were to know about the truth about existence, the One who made it and why.

I originally began to write this to talk about random things, but since my hands has lead me up to this, then I will share a little more of what science says about God. (Man, I thought this post was going to be short…)

#1 “But science already proves God doesn’t exist?” or #2 “Evolution proves we come from monkeys.” And there are many “scientific” statements that argues against the existence of a omnipotent, omniscient, and loving God.

That’s not really the important part, but nevertheless, for the sake of this post, I need to answer those two statements at the very least. I’ll talk about the important part once I finish explaining. You can skip this if you want to, just press CTRL+F or Command/F if you’re on iOS

#1

#2

*4S.

#1 “But science already proves God doesn’t exist?”

Firstly I will define science using online dictionaries, I’ll list 2, but you can look it up in different places as well.

Science
– (from Dictionary.com) systematic knowledge of the physical or material world gained through observation and experimentation.
– (from Merriam-Webster) knowledge or a system of knowledge covering general truths or the operation of general laws especially as obtained and tested through scientific method

(observation/question, create hypothesis, predict results, test hypothesis by observing/testing experiment, end with analysis)

I am defining science as the way to gain knowledge of something. There are other definitions for science as well, such as “the state of knowing : knowledge as distinguished from ignorance or misunderstanding”

From the above definitions, in the simplest terms, the scientific method is the following: look at something, do something with it and see if anything interesting happens, look at the results and see if it worked out.
(This is my interpretation of the scientific method for easier digestion for readers)

The first step, “look at something”, the basis of science, defined as a way of gaining knowledge, only works on the physical and tangible.

Is God physical and tangible? I will not define God in human terms but by His own Word. John 4:24 “God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship him in spirit and in truth.” Jesus himself says “God is spirit” This leads to the conclusion: the scientific method cannot be used on God, therefore science is incapable of proving and denying God’s existence.

I just used the scientific method by the way to prove scientific method is useless on the existence of God.

(Question/Observation: Can science prove God’s existence? Hypothesis: If the scientific method cannot observe God, then science is incapable of prove nor deny God’s existence. Experiment: Find definition for science and scientific method, in additional to find the composition of God in reliable sources. Analysis: Scientific Method can only be used on the physical and material. “God is Spirit”. Spirit is neither physical and material. Scientific Method cannot be used. Conclusion: Science cannot prove nor deny God’s existence.)

Are you still reading? I congratulate you on your willingness to seek truth and knowledge. Jesus says “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.” Matthew 7:7
I hope you can find what you seek in this post: E.G. purpose of your life, or for all human life.

#2 “Evolution proves we come from monkeys.”

I’m not an expert on this question, so if you really want to look, here’s a page I found. I believe you should find opposing arguments and see which ones are more logical. The truth always wins. Think of this as if you having no more clean underwear left and you’ve already flipped a side.

http://www.answersingenesis.org/articles/nab2/humans-evolve-apelike-creatures

http://www.proof-of-evolution.com/ape-to-human-evolution.html

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20110119153936AANNkKn

(I don’t know why but Google Search is strangely for proving how we don’t come from Apes, I typed “how DNA proves we come from apes”, “evolution proves we come from monkeys”, and “evolution proves we come from apes” see if you get the same results)

*4S

So that stuff above is not really that important. If that’s not important, what is? This message is the most valuable thing that you will ever hear and should you choose to believe, it will change your life. This is the Christian Gospel (not Catholicism, not Mormon, not Jehovah’s Witness) in its simplest form and all that you need. I hope I don’t get owned by any copy write for sharing this. So I will write this in a different way. Hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing this.

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A Day In the Life

Scene 1: Outside Science and Engineering Library in UC Santa Cruz on a Wednesday Afternoon.

Two strangers begin to walk up to a poor fellow studying for Organic Chemistry

STRANGER A

(walks up behind Poor Fellow)

Have you 5 minutes of your time?

POOR FELLOW

(Haven’t turned around yet)

I don’t want to buy your stinky perfume. Shoo! Go Away!

(Turns around upon realization it is not the perfume salesperson)

Oh… Sorry, I was really annoyed by this perfume guy. He was here earlier going around bothering everyone. What do you want?

STRANGER B

(whispers to stranger A)

다음사람으로 넘어가는게 좋을거같아?

(Show Captions when possible: “Maybe we should move on to the next person)

STRANGER A

그냥 해

(Poor Fellow looks at them curiously)

(Show Captions when possible: Just do it)

STRANGER B

(turns to Poor Fellow)

So we’re from this campus ministry called KCCC, and here’s this little booklet I would like to share with you.

POOR FELLOW

Oh sure, I’m bored from studying.

STRANGER A

So here’s this booklet.

(Shows booklet to Poor Fellow)

(Projector: Cover of 4 Spiritual Laws)

STRANGER A

(Reads straight up from book, flipping cover so only one page is shown at a time, using a pen to point at the words in the book as Stranger A reads to Poor Fellow. Poor Fellow nods occasionally along with responsive mmhmm during the reading eventually stares at his fingernails and attempts to clean them)

(Projector: Show pages as Stranger A reads)

Four Spiritual Laws

Just as there are physical laws that govern
the physical universe, so are there spiritual laws
that govern your relationship with God.

God loves you and offers a wonderful plan for your life.

God’s Love
“God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever
believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life” (John 3:16, NIV).

God’s Plan
[Christ speaking] “I came that they might have life, and might have it abundantly”
[that it might be full and meaningful] (John 10:10).

Why is it that most people are not experiencing that abundant life?

Because…

Man is sinful and separated from God.
Therefore, he cannot know and experience
God’s love and plan for his life.

Man is Sinful
“All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God” (Romans 3:23).

Man was created to have fellowship with God; but, because of his own stubborn
self-will, he chose to go his own independent way and fellowship with God was broken.
This self-will, characterized by an attitude of active rebellion or passive indifference,
is an evidence of what the Bible calls sin.

Man Is Separated
“The wages of sin is death” [spiritual separation from God] (Romans 6:23).

This diagram illustrates that God is holy and man is sinful. A great gulf separates the two. The arrows illustrate that man is continually trying to reach God and the abundant life through his own efforts, such as a good life, philosophy, or religion
-but he inevitably fails.

The third law explains the only way to bridge this gulf…

Jesus Christ is God’s only provision for man’s sin.
Through Him you can know and experience
God’s love and plan for your life.

He Died In Our Place
“God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners,
Christ died for us” (Romans 5:8).

He Rose from the Dead
“Christ died for our sins… He was buried… He was raised on the third day,
according to the Scriptures… He appeared to Peter, then to the twelve.
After that He appeared to more than five hundred…” (1 Corinthians 15:3-6).

He Is the Only Way to God
“Jesus said to him, ‘I am the way, and the truth, and the life, no one comes to
the Father but through Me'” (John 14:6).

This diagram illustrates that God has bridged the gulf that separates us from Him by sending His Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross in our place to pay the penalty for our sins.

It is not enough just to know these three laws…

We must individually receive Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord;
then we can know and experience God’s love and plan for our lives.

We Must Receive Christ
“As many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children
of God, even to those who believe in His name” (John 1:12).

We Receive Christ Through Faith
“By grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves,
it is the gift of God; not as result of works that no one should boast” (Ephesians 2:8,9).

When We Receive Christ, We Experience a New Birth
(Read John 3:1-8.)

We Receive Christ Through Personal Invitation
[Christ speaking] “Behold, I stand at the door and knock;
if any one hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him” (Revelation 3:20).

Receiving Christ involves turning to God from self (repentance) and trusting
Christ to come into our lives to forgive our sins and to make us what He wants us to be.
Just to agree intellectually that Jesus Christ is the Son of God and that He died on the cross
for our sins is not enough. Nor is it enough to have an emotional experience.
We receive Jesus Christ by faith, as an act of the will.

These two circles represent two kinds of lives:


Self-Directed Life
S-Self is on the throne
-Christ is outside the life
-Interests are directed by self, often
resulting in discord and frustration

Christ-Directed Life
-Christ is in the life and on the throne
S-Self is yielding to Christ,
resulting in harmony with God’s plan
-Interests are directed by Christ,
resulting in harmony with God’s plan

(End of Reading)

STRANGER A

(Talks to Poor Fellow face to face)

Which circle best represents your life?

POOR FELLOW

(Points to the left circle)

STRANGER A

Now, which circle would you like to have represent your life?

POOR FELLOW

I don’t know yet.

STRANGER A

It is a pretty big decision, so if you ever want to accept Jesus in your life, you can do this.

(Points to the booklet again, with the pen, and reads)

The following explains how you can receive Christ:

You Can Receive Christ Right Now by Faith Through Prayer
(Prayer is talking with God)

God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude
of your heart. The following is a suggested prayer:

Lord Jesus, I need You. Thank You for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life and receive You as my Savior and Lord. Thank You for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life.
Take control of the throne of my life. Make me the kind of person You want me to be.

Does this prayer express the desire of your heart? If it does, I invite you to pray this
prayer right now, and Christ will come into your life, as He promised.

POOR FELLOW

I’ll see, I think I need to know more first before I do anything.

STRANGER B

That’s good. Let me just show you what happens when you receive Jesus in your life.

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(Read up to 5:18)

You know we actually have a thing tonight at Social Science RM 110 @ 7PM. We meet on every Wednesday night. You can come check it out.

POOR FELLOW

Sure, can I get your number in case I want to go?

STRANGER B

(takes out phone)

Sure.

POOR FELLOW

My number is 820104313344, call me or text me. I got to go.

STRANGER A + B

Nice meeting you. Hope we see you again.

(Waves bye, walks around for next victim)

Fin

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Now wasn’t that a great story? Maybe I’ll continue it on a different post.

Let’s see if I can do that fashion blog up next time.

Maybe I’ll continue in Ch. 1 of my book.

Still needs to find a real job.

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This post was almost got deleted 😮 Thank God for reminding me to Ctrl-A Ctrl-C this whole thing before it bugged on me.

Oh and I just got a haircut. I’ll post a picture when I have better lighting conditions.

First rain, + rant about the moon

It’s raining

I’m tired

It’s cold

I don’t wanna write.

So this is currently 3:54 am. I took a nice good nap earlier at 4pm – 9pm so it was pretty good.

I think I finally realize how hard is it to just have a nice quiet time to write and to think about my day. So many things happen everyday.

Anyways today I missed my playwriting class cuz my phone alarm died. I was also late to CTU event meeting cuz I only realized it was 12:15 when I woke up, and the meeting was at 12:30. So I just grabbed my pants n keys and went to the meeting. It was a good meeting, only about an hour. Hope it stays that way 😀

After that I went to go to SOAR office with one of my officers to find out about financial stuff + get CTU Constitution. When we got there, there were like a million people, so we decided to just go eat at Cowell.

And then gg

Meatless Monday, and it started raining.

gg

So we walked back and wanna go to a different dining hall

then,

10 BUS

gg

For those of you don’t know, the 10 bus is a magical bus that drops me off right outside my house.

Yes, I like buses very much.

I wonder who reads these things…

So now I am listening to Air on a G String, which is possibly the most relaxing song that I can listen to on repeat all day without getting bored.

 

Now about the moon.

I was on the way to San Jose when I saw the moon. I just kept staring at it for a while. Then when we finally finish eating at food court at Lawrence Plaza, we drove on 880, and I couldn’t see the moon again. I was a bit sad.

I remember when I was a kid, I always look on the moon, whenever I was on a bus, a minibus, or a big 2 story bus. I wonder what people think when they look at the moon. What I remembered I was thinking about what to write for my next rant, and decided to write something about the moon.

Isn’t the moon pretty?

How many different people are staring at the moon with me at that time? Oh how I wonder. What are they thinking when they stare at the moon?

I think you readers would notice that this post is a little different than the posts before. This post is more random than usual because I don’t really want to write right now, and I’m already 4 hours past the deadline anyways. So I am just spewing random stuff as my mind works and listening to classical music.

So from this post and the posts before, you can see that I really like buses, and now y’all know I like the moon. I like it because it’s shiny, yet it’s not too shiny in a way that would hurt me, like the sun. I am free to stare at the moon all day and wouldn’t blind my eyes. This is why I like the night better. The sun hurts me. The moon is so much more comfortable and relaxing to look at.

Maybe I should just write a poem about the moon.

Moon – by Hin Mak

End

Ookay, not a good idea.

I think I’ll just end here, since it’s too hard to write in 4 in the morning. I don’t even know how I can write that much.

Oh happy birthday Krispy

I wonder how much I changed, and how much I didn’t change.

If no one is perfect, in theory, there should be unlimited potential to change for the better, or for the worst.

I wonder how much I changed for the better.

If anything, I will have to thank God for what he’s done for me. The people I met, the opportunities that I’ve had, the opportunities that I haven’t had, the events that influence my life, the sadness, the happiness, my unique parents, my unique family, my unique friends. Everything is special to me. As I look at the moon, I remember to appreciate the changes that I’ve gone through, from my childhood, to now. As I am almost 21, I feel like I have to look back, just a little, so I don’t change back to what I was.

I feel like I still don’t know myself completely yet. So I’ll just trust God with that, cuz He knows me better than anyone else, and He got the plan of my life all ready for me. I don’t exactly know where I am going, cuz I am extremely tired and don’t know what the heck I’m writing. That Menuetto just knocked out my thought process cuz it’s such a familiar sound that I used to play on the violin. Even though I don’t play violin anymore, I kinda wish I can get it back, if it’s God’s will to give me time and inspiration to go back to violin. Probably not this year though, I’ll be so busy.

omg…

i know what i want

i want to go KARAOKE NAO

aite later

oh i remember what i was gonna write about the moon now, i will do it tomorrow, i mean today.