I am doing this experiment. Right now, I clicked “write post” without knowing what I wanted to write. This is the reason I’m writing what I’m writing right now.
Maybe it’ll be interesting to see my writing process in written form instead of in my head.
Now I explained myself what I am writing, I have to convince myself, no, not exactly convincing myself, but just do it as I go.
I am really typing non-sense right now. My thought process is really weird. It’s similar to a scattered plot diagram, I would put random dots (thoughts) and put them down. If I see anything that connects, I’ll try and see what picture comes out from it.
Like so, I wonder if I can really put all my thought process in here, because some of it does not make grammatical sense or
Ok, I’m not o going to backspace at all starting now, I don’t care if I ama make spelling mistakes. or grammar ones, if it makes sense, good, if it doesn’t, good luck? don’t judge me for my lack of clarity.
There are also moments when I blank out, and don’t know what exactly I want to type.
I see a cup.
Ok I’m back.
Moments I get distracted like now
I see cologne, and I don’t know why I wanted/began to tilt my head toward my sample sized armani colognes + one big one which I got randomly from someone who was doing a market research proejct who sold me for 20$. I bought that bottle because a girl said, a girl who I met randomly who I already know who is what I consider “an elder”, it smells good on me. That was the 2nd bottle of cologne I ever bought. It’s still a little over 1/3. it’s probably 3/8s.or 4/10? 2/5?
i see a cup
a flashing cup
no I’m not sugar high or have any substance, this is really what I think about
I have a flashing cup I got as a souvenir from a restaurant from Hong Kong and it sits at my right hand side. It’s really pretty, so yeah. I can’t help looking at pretty things.
Things that stand out ot to me
People who stand out from others people to me
Unique people who stand out from others who try to imitate/fulfill other people’s desires of them.
Unique girls are who I like.
I’m going a dangerous point here
I will keep my promise to not backspace (althought I did backspace an “a” somewhere back there)
why did I ever even bought that
shouldn’t have bought it
I did need it
I used to it omg my grammar fix my ue 700 and make the plug more stable
I still have that sports tape for fingers/small injuries
Man I miss playing sports.
There comes a time, for you young people who are younger than me, because I am forever 21 (or less) (or not) eventually I’ll not be 21 just maybe…
I don’t know what I’m writing
I hear clock ticking noises
I still do need to write down my will because you know never will die
when you know
when never you
you never know when
you never know when you’re going to die
it’s good to have a will ready
makes it easier for people who are still on earth
i wish i have that ralph lauren black
or acqua di gio, the big one
i a only have sampler
what if i start typing in french?
qu’est-ce que je peux ecrier en francais?
comment je peux ecrier en francais?
est-ce que je ecris correcte?
j’ai oublie beaucoup de francais
je suis oublie beaucoup de francais quand je n’ai pas pratiquer le
jen’ai pas le pratiquer i meant
it’ll be funny if someone actually understand what i am saying/ thinking
I had another dream yestereday when i was taking a nap before going to eat with a friend, beacuse i was dead tired
it was a dream about land before time with dinosaurs
I’ve had that dream for a long time ago
Except I enhanced the story somehow, it’s like having my own movie in my head
time does move slower in dream.
I remember my dreams from long time ago, and I redream those dreams and enhance the stories.
why am I w even writing
this is probably the crappiest writing i’ve ever wrote for a long time
May be woe one day I will become crazy and retarded and this is what i’ll do, type whatever i think
or i become mute
i hope i don’t become mute
it would be nice to be ta telepathic
easier for me to talk to people because making sense of what i want to say is pretty damn hard
why is that piece of paper there?
what do I do with those toys I used to play with
I think I gotta take off my contacts
Let’s just stop here fro for now
I’ve wrote a little too much for the unsuspecting readers.
It would be fun if people a can really read my mind.
Speaking really holds me back.
Writing takes too much time.
Music takes practice.
Dancing makes me sore + sweat.
lol why is commuunication so hard and so much trouble?
Prayer is so much easier. I can’t use my words, but God knows my heart.
Really, I feel like grunting more than speaking when I talk.
It’s so strenuous and lacking, yet it is the best humans can do, and I being a human can only do that much.
So thankful for the HS who speaks/mediates what my essence says. my being my soul self, that reality enveloped like water/ocean and that wetness that comes from the realization of reality.
what the heck did i just wrote. it’s too hard to explain it when im not really thinking too deeply and with all this interruptions
to fully explain what i just wrote i would have to think on a tangent and come back and go on another tangent and come back and have run ons and fancy cups and keys and other distractions
i really want to burp
it’s bothering me a lot
are is anyone still reading this?
ok i’m done