19% battery left

Let’s see what I can write with this much battery, kekeke.

Like most other times, I come to write without knowing what to write.

I only got back home about 20 minutes ago (7:30pm ish). And now I’m eating dinner as I’m writing this post. My average day is like today, being away from my house the whole day until night.

So what am I doing now? Why am I so occupied?

I intern at South Bay Church by day, and tutor K-12 by night. Lol the 14% battery warning just came on. It’s probably because I am eating too.

I am in a nice transitional phase right now.

Before I graduated, I actually thought I would just enter the workforce, do some SWOT analysis, marketing, stuff relevant to my major. Now I don’t really know what I’ll do with it. Sure it’s something I can do, but it may not be what I will do.

Similarly, for those who are still studying, what you study now gives you ability to do things other who didn’t study what you study cannot do, but that does not mean you will do what you study.

Although it seems now your goals are good, later on you may see there are greater things. Do not limit yourself by stressing yourself “I must do this or else I fail at life” No, there are surely greater things than these.

Is what you study now important? By all means YES. What you study becomes a part of you. In my case, I can see how studying economics affected my perception of everyday life. The cruel realities of life and the brokenness of the world, I understand much deeper than if I never majored in economics. I have to say I also have a artistic mind, although I do not have visual artistic talent, I picture my life as an artwork.

I’m down to 5% now.

Worrying does nothing to make things better. Do not be anxious in anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, something something from Philippians 3 or 4.

For those who never prayed, why not? There is nothing to lose. For those who are not praying as much as they want, why not? Just do or do not, there is no try.  I’m writing this to myself to keep me on my toes. So I will always remember to depend on God first.

And I’m done

It’s been a while, n I should be writing something else….

I am supposed to be writing an astonishing scene right now for my playwriting class. It is pretty easy, but I would actually have to use my imagination. I’ll do it as soon as I finish this post. Writing about what I actually want to write is more enjoyable than having to write stuff that people want me to write.

Anyways, it’s been a long time since I’ve really posted anything. It doesn’t mean my brain stopped working. It just means that I have been unable to get what has been on my mind in an organized form in which I can put it into English words that is comprehensible to the general public, which in this case would be you the reader, if anyone is reading at all.

Has it been 1 week or 2 weeks since I’ve last posted up a real post? I think I forgot the reason why I started to post blogs in the first place.

So many times, I start something, but I forget the reason why I start that something. I guess this post will be about this weakness of mine.

For some reason, I can get really fired up about something. I would be like “Hell Yeah Let’s do it” and some how get distracted and lost the original purpose of what I wanted to do. And so what I wanted to do from the beginning often turn into things that I do not want to do. This expands more past than what I want to do, this goes into what I want in life, what my goals are, what I want to eat, what I want to plan, what I want to write.

Originally, when I logged on to wordpress, I really have no idea what to write about. All I remember is that I should write something, even if it’s crap, since it’s how people become better writers, and I want to become a better writer.

My lack of self-discipline and many distractions + responsibilities dragged me out of blogging for a little bit. Ionno how long this roller coaster ride will keep on going. It’s been going on for a while. For now, I can blog for a little while until I get distracted again, like everything else I do apparently.

This experience again reminds me of how unfocused I am(Is this the word for it?). This is actually pretty sad really. I wanted to write something here again, but I don’t really feel like saying that stuff directly, especially when I’m pretty tired. So I’ll just write some words and if anyone can figure out them meaning behind these words, good for you. If you can’t, just make up some story with these words that will soon follow.

Heart

Freedom

Sake

Tri/Rec/Hexagon,etc

Breaking 없어

Change

Boom

Wall

Step

Then…

Time to go go go

 

Maybe I should try to finish a story that I started in the summer. The original idea for it was great, but I’ve been reading too many narratives and academic writing, so I forgot how dialogues go. I’ll have to do some research before I can start writing… Now good luck to me, cuz I’ll probably put it off because there will always be something else to do. Like making a mix or playing HoN or making Shin Ramyun or do my laundry.

Who am I right now? The past makes me who I am. What about now? The decisions and choices I will have is very confusing. If anyone wants to pray for me, please do. I want to be able to love more. If I really learn to love, I would be able to use that love to focus on what needs to be done, on who needs to be loved, on what my priorities should be.

I really have to finish my scenario, so I’ll go. Later

 

I’m gonna try to post every day for the rest of 2011

So I saw this article about the Nation Writing a Novel Month in November.

This gave me a nice motivation to start to write more. Since I’ve been writing a wide variety of things lately. (Play writing, letters, proposals, etc…)

And here is the sample post that I copied and paste which describes my feelings on blogging right now.

I’ve decided I want to blog more. Rather than just thinking about doing it, I’m starting right now. I will be posting on this blog once a day / once a week for all of 2011. I know it won’t be easy, but it might be fun, inspiring, awesome and wonderful. Therefore I’m promising to make use of The DailyPost, and the community of other bloggers with similiar goals, to help me along the way, including asking for help when I need it and encouraging others when I can. If you already read my blog, I hope you’ll encourage me with comments and likes, and good will along the way.

Signed,

MakMak

As my first post, I’ll rant about what I think about bus drivers. Bus drivers are awesome, both in real life and in games. So in Starcraft 2, there is this game called Mafia. For those of you who never heard about Mafia, it’s basically a game of keeping your poker face and figure out who’s the bad guy. Anyways, I don’t want to go into detail about the game here, because this is not about Mafia, this is about bus drivers.

Bus driver is not a normal role in a normal game of Mafia with just cards. People can certainly add him to the game, but in most games of Mafia, people will use these roles: Mafia, PoPo, and Doc. In the Starcraft mod, there’s a bunch of more mods because of the almost unlimited possibilities of the game, and people cannot see each other, so they will have to guess who is who by using their skills given their role.  One of those roles is the legendary bus driver. The bus driver can run over people and swap people from the intended target. So if mafia wanted to kill me, but the bus driver swap me with someone else, that someone else would die instead. And if the bus driver knows who mafia is, he can run him over. Gotta love the bus driver.

Now to talk about a bus driver in real life. In UC Santa Cruz, if you are a student here, you’ve probably heard about the legendary EPIC BUS. It’s the bus where the bus driver plays EPIC songs. It just makes my day whenever I go into the EPIC BUS ’cause it makes my life so much more EPIC, or at least it makes me feel my life is more EPIC. Having EPIC music going to class really makes going to class more fun. Later, however, what you do in the class is dependent on the professor and on you… lol

Now something to think about….

Bus Drivers drive people all day. Depending on what route of bus is being driven, the people reach their destinations. It can be a Tour Bus, a City Bus, a Magic School Bus, in the end, buses help people reach their destinations. The difference between a bus and a car, instead of going to the destination yourself, you are going into a complete stranger’s vehicle. Why do people trust bus drivers? Is it because the bus is pretty? Is it because the bus driver is in a uniform (for city buses)? If you really think about it, isn’t going on a bus almost as scary as hitchhiking? It’s just a different vehicle with a planned route. What if the bus driver suddenly fails to take the planned route? What if the bus driver is suicidal and want to kill everyone on the bus? What if a bomb is in the bus? What if the bus has some mechanical failure and blows up?

But yet people still do trust bus drivers. Bus drivers hold a lot of responsibility on their passenger’s lives and well being. This is why bus drivers are awesome. Driving a bus it may seem like an easy job to anyone who has a driver’s license. “I can drive a car, I can drive a bus right?” Driving a bus takes much more responsibility than driving a car. Bus drivers are constantly under lots of pressure to get passengers to point A and point B. So next time you can, show some appreciation to your bus drivers. I’m pretty sure they’ll be happy about it. It would give them more job satisfaction and make them drive happier.

I’ll rant more about buses some time again.

One of my favorite bus quotes

Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.” Oprah???!!! LOL

but it’s true aint it?